Sunday, April 22, 2018

Secondary Trauma: Cklara Moradian

Secondary Trauma!

Kendra Hamilton CSUN MSW Cohort 18 Introducing Cklara Moradian CSUN MSW Cohort 2019 at Diversity Day 2018. Secondary Trauma was the theme of the conference

Kurdish babies born in refugee camps are given names like Sangar (barricade), Awara (displaced), Revin (escape), Zindan (prisoner), Ranjbar (someone who suffers), Firmesk (tears), Bezar (spiteful), Xabat (fight), Tola (revenge), Hawar (wailing) Rizgar (rescued), Snoor (border), Lana (home).

They are victims of geography, survivors of a map.
They grow to sow their lips in protest and they carve symbols into their skin, coordinates of their birthplace, as if to say “when you find me, send me home.”
Mothers spend hours lulling their restless children to sleep, singing lullabies that tell of a journey filled with rage. They do not migrate through the process of abscission. They are plucked in violence, deported.
What pains are passed on in these names? What wisdom?
It’s called secondary trauma, as if the seconds it takes to cut the umbilical cord from my mother could insulate me from the torture inflicted on her bones by the state, by displacement, by despair.
As if the lines that separate me from you is drawn in red, or in yellow tape, marking a departure clear enough for me to really feel where you end and I begin. Tell me, where do you end and I begin?
I didn’t have to be there to see my uncles hanged for speaking their mother tongue to taste the bitter end of my roots flicker as I try to speak my language, the fluency of which escapes me now.
I didn’t have to be there to know of what you went through during forced confessions, Father. I didn’t have to hear the wailing of my imprisoned kin to now be startled awake by their cries.
Visions of my ancestors forced from the mountains into the desert with blistering feet keep me awake. I walk barefoot on tip toes as if my feet are blistered. Tell me, where do you end and I begin?
What is secondary about this intergenerational heirloom, passed down to me without my consent? What massacres happened in this crossing from one continent to the other? What comes first? Tell me, where do you end and I begin?
They say I have not differentiated myself enough (not in my identity formation). The subtleties of my individuality have become murky in the passage of loss from one generation to the other.
I close my eyelids to find refuge but my memory is fact. It is in my DNA, in epigenetic shapeshifting. The past is present.
What is secondary about waking every day to the news of another genocide, another friend dead, another aunt, sister enslaved? Another exodus? What is secondary about ritual mourning? Every morning! When can we heal? When can we fully grieve when it is never ending? Tell me, where do you end and I begin?
I once read that pain flows from one family member to the next until someone is ready to feel it. I feel it. I feel it in my flesh, in the marrow of my bones, in my gut. It is like pins right under my fingernails, accumulating in somatic bruises on my thighs. And it shows when I reach out to you and say “I bear witness.” Tell me, where do you end and I begin?
At night, I twist and turn into the fetal position, my belly sounding off my people’s history. I carry it in my posture, the way I am weight down by sorrows I have no names for. I hold it in my voice when it vibrates with fear. I am anchored to the agony of exile. It is all consuming. It is water. It is in the heaviness of the air that does not fully fill my lungs. It is in the space where I sit with all that has been done to you, in all the places where your jaw lines were broken by armed men in uniform Father, beaten to shatters until you could not eat for days.
I remember so you can go on forgetting because you need to forget. I remember so you can go on forgetting.
Every time I look in the mirror, the outline of your silhouette is reflecting back your pain. Tell me, where do you end and I begin?
What is secondary about this pain? To me, it has been an offering. It has been profound loss, wrapped in every conversation, gifted to me in passing. That “all things are lost” is imparted in disorganized attachment, in denial, melancholia, in the sense of betrayal, in bedtime stories of persecution.
My mother, pregnant and imprisoned at 18, was beaten black and blue until she miscarried. I grew up knowing I was not her first child. Grief has come in abundance. Safety was scarce. Tell me, where do you end and I begin?
Where is the line between lived experience and being raised with the knowledge of all that has been lost? Tell me, what is loss?
In the journey of displacement, I have lost language, I have lost language (s). I have lost birth certificates, passports, a state. I have lost the promise of return to a land forever stolen from me. I have lost count of my losses. Tell me, where do you end and I begin?
The coordinates of my birthplace is Latitude 36°14′ 47″N Longitude 46° 15′ 59" E. I am another refugee child with a mispronounced name. When I die, send me home!

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Wednesday, February 28, 2018

2nd Annual International Women in Diplomacy - Women's Day Celebration

I am humbled to get recognized on March 8,


Please join us for the 2nd Annual International Women-in-Diplomacy, Women's Day Celebration and luncheon at the Pasadena City Women's Club March 8th.
We have several speakers from around the world, coming to share their challenges and experiences in diplomacy while covering a variety of topics including: Women's Empowerment, Peace-building, Human Trafficking, International Networking, Diplomacy Acquirement and Stress management.
The diverse backgrounds of our guest speakers and topics is sure to promote a fascinating discussion and memorable afternoon
Speakers List:
Parikhan Shawky - Consul General
Janet Elliott - President/CEO
International Visitors Council of Los Angeles
Glenda Wina, CGMP - U.S. Rep. for Special Projects
Office of the Zambian Vice-President
Sherie Scheer - Instructor
Certified Yoga & Aston Practitioner
Rev. Carolyn Wilkins - Ambassador of Peace
International Interfaith Speaker, Mediator
Rajiv Uttamchandani - Astrophysicist, Human Rights Activist
Social Entrepreneur, Educator, and Motivational Speaker
Athia Carrim - Interfaith & Education Director,
International Institute of Tolerance
Mason M. Medizade - President & Chief Excutive Officer,
Petrolects LLC.

Private Event please email: for more information
What are my parking options for the event?
Free parking directly behind the club house. Access parking location off N. Madison Ave., second driveway south of E. Walnut St.
(The Women's City Club has a minimum dress code of business casual.)
Is there a dress code?
The Women's City Club has a minimum dress code of business casual

Honorary Consul of Senegal

Organizer of 2nd Annual International Women in Diplomacy - Women's Day Celebration
Mame T. MBaye, is a native of Thies City in Senegal and has lived in Los Angeles for 27 years.  She is presently The Honorary Consul of the Republic Senegal in Los Angeles. She has always found passion to promote her native country Senegal and made the rest of the world discover the hidden potentials it has among many other West African countries. For many years, she has been working on putting Senegal back on the map of developing countries of the World through conferences, forums, private meetings with investors, cultural promotions, participation to world conferences like the United Nations Summit, global and local Trade commissions and business potentials.
Mame has recently been appointed A Peace Ambassador by GPPI (the Global Prosperity and Peace Initiative) in Utah as a Peace maker in the Us and Senegal. She has also received an award by The Minorities in Business Association for her dynamic agenda in connecting businesses between Senegal and the US, is a member of WIN (Women Information Network) which empower Women around the world and just became a member of an organization called One Africa which promote Business in Africa. She also received an award by Vigor Goodwill Awards for Philanthropy in Canada.
Mame had worked with several organizations like The Pan-African film festival, and African Focus Inc. as a Vice President. For many years, she had worked as well with Los Angeles Superior Court and many courts in Southern California, interpreting and advocating for battered Women and many immigrants. She is also presently the VP of Family Bridge Foundation and is working closely with other members of her community as the Vice President of the Senegalese Association to make a difference in people’s lives here in the US, in Africa and beyond. She thrives to see betterment in her environment and the whole world around her by working on eliminating poverty, building the bridge between Senegal ,The United States and the rest of the world through socio-cultural, economic and educational activities and programs.

Thursday, December 31, 2015

Happy New Year 2016, I wish and I try

Happy New Year to all of my dear friends on Facebook and everywhere else

I hope year 2016 will be a violence free year, equality between men and women, full of peace, no terrorist attack, no Turkey’s military operations in Kurdish cities, end of war in Syria, end to ISIS,  and independence of a new Nation in Iraq; Kurdistan, freedom of political prisoners in Iran.

Do I wish too much?

We don’t just wish ,we work for it; we must…


سال نو میلادی بر همه دوستان عزیزم مبارک

امیدوارم سال 2016 سال عاری از خشونت ، سال صلح، برابری   میان زن و مرد ، بدور از حمله های تروریستی و وحشت ، سال توقف حملات ارتش ترکیه شهرهای کردنشین ؛ ؛ پایان جنگ سوریه ، نابودی داعش , تولد و استقلال یک ملت جدید در عراق؛ کردستان وسال آزادی زندانیان سیاسی و رعایت موازین حقوق بشری در ایران باشد.
امیدهای زیادی است؟

فقط امید نیستند ؛ بایست برایشان تلاش کنیم

سالی تازه ی زایینیتان پیروزبایی ده که م. هیوادارم سالی 2016 سالیکی بی توندو تیژی ؛ سالی یه کسانی نیوان ژن و پیاو ؛ سالی راوه ستانی هیرشی تورکیه به سه ر کوردستان ؛ سالی ته واو بوونی شه ری سوره ؛ له ناو چوننی داعش ؛ له دایک بوون و سه ر به خوویی نه ته وه ی کورد له عیراق و ئازادی زیندانیه سیاسیه کان له ئیران و ته واوبوونی پی شه ل کردنی مافی مروف بیت.

زور هیوام هه یه ؟

ته نیا هیوا دار نین ؛ بوی تی ده کوشین ...

Sunday, July 19, 2015

Interview in Farsi and Kurdish with Rojan about her upcoming concert in LA


وتو ویژی ده نگی کورده کانی دانیشتوی ئه مریکا له گه ل هونه ر مه ندی کورد خاتو روژان


VOKRadio; مصاحبه ی صمیمانه با بانوی آواز کردستان خانم روژان

مصاحبه اختصاصی رادیو با هنرمند و آوازه خوان کرد روژان
خانم روژان هنرمند به نام کرد که آهنگهایی به چند زبان کردی ،فارسی و آذری دارد به زودی کنسرت بزرگی در ویلشر ایبل تئاتر خواهد داشت.
دراین مصاحبه خانم روژان به توضیحاتی در رابطه با برگزارى كنسرتشان در ماه آکوست صحبت کردند و فعالیعای هنری خود را در زمینه های مختلف توضیح دادند. ایشان از همکاری بی سائبه اقای مهرداد مهرداد اعرابی و آقای شاهین یوسف زمانی قدردانی کردند.
مصاحبه ی صمیمانه با بانوی آواز کردستان خانم روژان
مصاحبه حاضر گفتو گویی صمیمانه با بانوی آواز کردستان خانم روژان است .روژان به همراهی چند تن از هنرمندان صاحب نام موسیقی در حال تهیه و تدارک برگزاری کنسرت بزرگی در ماه آگوست هستند.
این رادیو مفتخر است که مصاحبه با ایشان را به دوزبان فارسی و کردی به سمع علاقمندان برساند

Thursday, July 9, 2015

New experiences

If you like to go for Hotair Ballon ,it is unlike any other experiences
Here is some information about it:
You call, they are going to schedule you for a  SHARED basket balloon flight and all information will be email to pay but :"*Gratuity for pilot and crew is not included in your purchase. The usual pilot/crew gratuity is 15% of your purchase or approximately $30 per guest.


If you need to cancel or change your reservation, our change or cancellation policy is **48 hours prior to your flight**. If anything in this reservation is incorrect, please contact us right away at (760) 641-6741.


 TEMECULA: Temecula is southern California's wine tasting region with over 49 vineyards open for wine tasting and shopping.  It is a great place to visit for a 1/2 day trip or more.


 We meet in the large event (east side) parking lot at the  South Coast Winery Resort & Spa.  The address is34843 Rancho California Road, Temecula, CA 92591. From the 15 FWY, take Rancho California Road east, approximately 6 miles, past Anza road (a traffic circle) and turn right into the South Coast Winery.  The event parking lot is the large square lot as you enter the parking lot.  Please park in the stalls next to the building or trees. Several balloon companies may meet and/or launch at South Coast Winery, so be sure to look for us by name. To learn more about the South Coast Winery, visit


The balloon ride itself is about 1 hour long, but the entire experience you will be with us for approximately 2 to 21/2 hours.  Please keep the time frame in mind when planning your events after the flight. 

 **If you are lost or running late for any reason, call the pilot directly at (310) 734-9104**

We recommend that you wear layered clothes as if you were going hiking, something you don't mind getting dirty, specifically flat closed toe shoes and a hat. It will not be cold in the balloon. 

Any persons with knee, hip, ankle surgery or replacement in the past 12 months must have a signed note from a doctor releasing you to participate in this outdoor adventure activity. Any women participating must not be pregnant; we do not fly any term of pregnancy.

 A $50 weight surcharge may apply if an individual passenger weighs more than 225 lbs. This only applies to shared basket flights, not for private flight passengers.

If you have questions at any time, please feel free to call us at (951) 699-5800

Cancellation Policy

If you must cancel your flight please contact us at least 48 hours prior to your flight. If you cancel within 48 hours of your flight or fail to show up, no refund is given and full fare will be charged. Prepaid vouchers and promotional fares are non-refundable or redeemable for cash. Our internet promotional terms are outlined on our website and at the bottom of this email. In case your plans change or weather cancellations, your only option is to reschedule for another date."


Sunday, April 26, 2015

Oil on canvas , Kurdistan historic cities

از هنرمند گرامی و نویسنده کرد استاد زهدی سردار برای نقشه باستان شناسی کردستان تقدیر می کنم. از اینکه افتخار داده و مرا هم در این نقشه تاریخی جا داده اند بی نهایت بر خود می بالم.این نقشه نقاشی رنگ روغن روی بوم است
Oil on canvas , Kurdistan historic cities and
Archeological sites .a nice painting by Mr. Zuhdi Sardar. I am proud to be part of his art.
تابلۆی خه ریته ی میژویی کورد و چونیه تی حه ره که تی کورد له بواری میژوییه وه. هونه رمه ند کاک زوهدی سه ردار . سپاسی کاک سه ردار بو کیشاننی وینه ی من له سه ر خه ریته که. شانازم.
.عکس طرف راست مدل نقاشی ایشان بود که عکاسش خانم ریتا نسیان است.

Thursday, February 26, 2015

My stealthy Freedom - یه شب مهتاب :آزادی های یواشکی زنان در ایران

Soraya Flallah new song "Yek Shabe Mahtab" for My Stealthy Freedom